3 Scars of Grace 三把刀
Author: Sis Serena Tan
At the age of 11, I met a car accident. I was hit by a motorcycle. The injury was a 2 cm cut just beside my right eye. If not for God’s grace, I would have been blinded. That was my 1st scar of grace
My 2nd scar was an 8cm scar across my tummy when I was conceiving my 2nd daughter. I had light bleeding throughout my pregnancy, which was a sign of miscarriage or some serious complications. I constantly had scary thoughts that I could have another miscarriage or a deformed child.
During that resting period, I read the whole bible for the 1st time in my life. God gave me strength and assurance from His Words that He is in control of everything. God is gracious, when my child was delivered, she was healthy and weighed 3.5kg.
In 2005, everyone in my family was shocked and saddened by the news that I was diagnosed with cancer-lymphoma. I had swelling on my left neck and occasionally experienced intense needle liked pain. Fear of death imprisoned my faith. Where is God when it hurts? I prayed fervently to God to heal me. I must have faith in God as faith empowers and liberates fear. I know God will not forsake me. When the tumor was removed, it left a 4cm scar on my left neck and I thanked God that it was benign. I was elated. God healed me again.
“ “But I will restore you to health and heal your wounds,” declares the Lord.”
I now serve the Lord with gladness to demonstrate my love for Him. My 3 scars, though ugly, are marks of God’s grace in my life. My life belongs to God. Thank you, Lord, with You, I have peace, comfort, and nothing to fear.
“Yahweh is my light and my salvation. Whom shall I fear? Yahweh is the strength of my life. Of whom shall I be afraid.”
文:陈素娥姐妹
翻译:王佩瑾师母
十一岁那年，我遇上了一起交通意外。当时，我被一辆摩多车撞倒，导致右眼旁留下两公分的伤口。若不是神的恩典，我现在应该已经盲了。那是我一生中，第一道充满神的恩典的疤痕。
第二把刀就落在我的肚皮上。怀上第二个女儿的时候，我一直都有轻微流血的问题。一般来说，那是小产或者其他严重并发症的征兆。那时，我一直害怕再度流产，或肚子里的宝宝会是个畸形儿。在修养的期间，我第一次把整本圣经读完一遍。神透过祂的话，赐给我力量与信心，确知祂是一切的主宰。靠着神的恩典，我产下了一个3.5公斤，健康的宝宝。
2005年，我被诊断患有淋巴癌，家人为此都感到震惊和难过。我左边的颈项肿了起来，偶尔还会感到像被针刺般的疼痛。对于死亡的恐惧感在此时困住了我对神的信心。当我伤痛时，神你在哪里？我不断地向神祷告，祈求祂医治我。我必须对神有信心因为只有通过对神的信心，我才能摆脱被恐惧的摆布。我知道神是不会遗弃我的。当肿瘤被割除时，手术虽然在我颈项左边留下一道4公分的疤痕，但我非常感恩肿瘤是良性的。当时的我简直欣喜若狂。神又再次治愈了我。
““我却必使你康复，医治你的创伤。这是耶和华的宣告。”
如今，我满怀欣喜地事奉主，借以表明我对祂的爱。我挨的三把刀，虽然在身上留下了三道丑陋的疤痕，但它们却是神在我的生命里恩典的记号。我的生命是属于神的。感谢主，因为你，我不再畏惧，并且拥有平安及安慰。
“耶和华是我的亮光，是我的救恩，我还怕谁呢？耶和华是我性命的避难所，我还惧谁呢？”